7.45pm ;

just saw a miss call from him after 4 long months without even knowing what he's doing. i hate it when he says he's busy, tired, outside with friends or some crappy stupid excuse after another. but seeing it makes me wait like a fool again. though he never replies...

must he really act like a spiderman? must he call and not tell me why? must he be the hero in my life? must he save me from all the unhappiness?

and disappear just like that...

(15 minutes later from the miss call)
a sms came. its not him. i've known him well enough.

(an hour later...)
a call came, answered without realising its him. asked me to meet him later when he reach woodlands. sending someone home. must be a girl. i dont know why i thought of it this way but its very likely. i really dont know if i should meet him. really dont. some part of me wants to see him but some part of me dont really know how to face him. the tone he used was rather reluctant to see me. then why bother to call? why bother to meet? why bother to ask me out?

why even bother to show up again bastard?

im agitated. seriously am.

(10.05pm)
he haven't call. must be busy, again. i dont even know why i bother lah. since he dont bother much. ahh!! i dont know what im doing.

should forget about it. =/

mass run was on as usual on wednesday mornings. i walked 4 solid rounds today. like wtf. had maths test right after. getting better already. dont know why, must be the irregular visits to my tuition centre. haha. how ironic.

3 tests were on for today and had mother tongue listening test right after school. our chinese teacher got angry and behaved like a real gay to talk with the hand swinging all over him because marvin and samuel were playing a fool. they walked out soon after whereas yixuan and i stayed for the sake of our marks.

it is a tiring day. no doubt.



pretty right? came across their photo in the chinese mtv website. the girl on the right is starring as Ye Ke Lan in Magicians of Love. Her real name is Sui Tang (随堂). the other chick is called Tang Tang (堂堂). Both models lah. can never reach their height okay faggers.


this? is his once dream now reality 28 or 38 i forgot years old (super) vintage vespa. yes he has a name for it. yes yes yes i know. i should stop talking bout him.

have to go to bed for now. cant stand everything around me. not a thing. damn, i wish i could just disappear like how he does it.

fuck.

;i am afraid